A heart of flesh...

The heart is a treasured thing.When you're a kid you give your heart to the ones who take care of you and love you.You tend to be carefree.No fear.No doubt.You trust the unknown.As you get older it seems to get harder.The trust you once had in people seems at loss.You begin to realize there's more to love than what they told you in the Disney movies.You want to experience the worlds love just to see if you will be embraced in return."Test the waters" as they say.Little girls dream of their knight in shining armor coming on a white horse to save them.But in this life,that's not always the case.Although there is one who is coming on a white horse to carry His beloved bride home.It's just complete when you have Jesus.Although I've realized in my own life that it's harder to trust in someone you can't see.I tend to be like doubting Thomas sometimes.He trusted in the Lord...but didn't believe that Jesus was really alive from the grave until he saw him with his own eyes.Don't you ever get to that point in your life where everything this is going and you have complete trust in Jesus?Then when something bad or something else comes along you just lose that trust you once had.It seems so easy to fall than to get back up again.I'm at this point in my life where its hard for me to put my full trust in the Lord.I've read books about it especially when it comes to the dating world.At least I'm not the only one who has a hard time in trusting God for His perfect timing.I was reminded of something I read in a book the other day.There was a boy who was given a silver ball which dangled a silken golden thread.This old lady told him that every time he pulled the thread it would make that time pass quicker.The lady then warned him that when the thread was gone it couldn't be put back in the silver ball again.School went by and he decided he wanted to be done with it,so he pulled the thread.And it goes on to say that he kept on pulling the thread through his life until he reached the end.He didn't let time pass like it was suppose to.He rushed his way through life.I don't want to rush my way through life.In and out of relationships.It is hard.But I'll just have to try and let my walls be torn down so God can build me,the real me back up.
I know this entry is probably everywhere,but its my thoughts.The thoughts of a single girl with lots on her mind at 1:39 in the morning.God help me to be patient and wait for your timing.The right timing and not try to rush like the boy in that story.

And I leave you with this...
"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh."-Ezekiel36:26