I really miss blogging. It has been quite some time since I've been on here. Probably because I'm afraid to type out my emotions or "spill the beans" I guess you could say. But here I am! Do I get some kind of "Welcome Back Becca!" or "We missed you and your random posts that have no interest to our lives whatsoever."? Well I'm here whether you like it or not!
I have been through so much crap...yes I said CRAP! These past few months have been a struggle. Let's just say 2016-2017 I've joined the struggle train and it's real. No, being married isn't the struggle. It's the weird things in between: the bills, job switches, being pressured to have children, wanting that dream vacation everyone has and the list goes on. Yes, I know God is real and there to help me. I read His word and He does speak through the noise in my brain. In fact, today, I randomly asked in the google search bar "Where do I go Lord?" I will tell you God can answer you anywhere He chooses. I began to read below and this scripture popped up in John 6:68-70...."Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God." 70 Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve?..."
When I read verse 70 my mind was blown away yet again. He told the disciples have I not chosen you? He then said to me, "Becca, have I not chosen you, beloved?" Well gesh!Yes!Yes! Yes Lord! You have chosen me too! I may be hurting big time, but Jesus has chosen me! I can give it my all in everything I do. Even in my every day routine, whether it's a routine or not. He just asks that I follow Him and do the best I can in this world for His kingdom.
So tonight I lift up my head...
"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."-Psalm 43:5
I have been through so much crap...yes I said CRAP! These past few months have been a struggle. Let's just say 2016-2017 I've joined the struggle train and it's real. No, being married isn't the struggle. It's the weird things in between: the bills, job switches, being pressured to have children, wanting that dream vacation everyone has and the list goes on. Yes, I know God is real and there to help me. I read His word and He does speak through the noise in my brain. In fact, today, I randomly asked in the google search bar "Where do I go Lord?" I will tell you God can answer you anywhere He chooses. I began to read below and this scripture popped up in John 6:68-70...."Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69 We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God." 70 Then Jesus replied, "Have I not chosen you, the Twelve?..."
When I read verse 70 my mind was blown away yet again. He told the disciples have I not chosen you? He then said to me, "Becca, have I not chosen you, beloved?" Well gesh!Yes!Yes! Yes Lord! You have chosen me too! I may be hurting big time, but Jesus has chosen me! I can give it my all in everything I do. Even in my every day routine, whether it's a routine or not. He just asks that I follow Him and do the best I can in this world for His kingdom.
So tonight I lift up my head...
"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."-Psalm 43:5
There are plenty of emotions I could share with you right now, but it probably won't help.
Anyways, I think I better get ready for a busy weekend.
-Becca Lyons
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