Sitting here taking a short break from everything.It feels like forever since I've been on here.I've felt so closed from the world these past few months.It's been really tense this past May.Ending the school year with my 4yr/5yr olds.Senior Graduation.Pictures for the yearbook.My sister and niece came into town.Memorial(Or Memerrial Day as the Butlers and I would say)with fam.Stressing out over tests,final exams coming up and over 180 something math problems I've been working on for a while.Not to mention I was given a practice test yesterday that I haven't even worked on.Only the LORD has been my strength at this time.Trust me,I've been freaking out,worrying,crying and getting frustrated in every possible way.Sometimes I can't even talk to people or even be around them for to long cause I start acting very emotional.I feel like this quarter of school has messed me up the best way it could.I've done everything to almost give up and quit.Please tell me I'm not the only person who has undergone this pressure.I just feel so alone in this battle.There were times where I wanted to ask prayer from people I worked with at school,but I didn't want to start crying in front of anyone.I've had plenty of breakdowns in front of my folks.Thank the LORD that He gave me the right parents who can put up with my emotional self.Especially my dad.Through all this God is having to break me down and show me that I'm not perfect and I'm who He made me to be.Rebecca Elizabeth Mitchell,the only one of me in this entire world.I'm so thankful that God understands me more than I can even comprehend myself.As this quarter is coming to an end within the next 2weeks I'm just going to take in everything and try to think this is for a good cause.Although I'm not quite sure what yet.After this all I have to say is "goodbye" to math at least until August.Through the thick and thin God has been so good and faithful to me my first year back in school.

On a side note,my birthday is coming up.I'm not sure what I'll be doing.Although word has it my nephews have something planned up their sleeves.I thought about having a party at maybe my sisters house if it was cool with her and any friends or family that wanted to come.Its kind of strange I'm turning 22.I never even really consider myself 21.At least I'll hopefully celebrate my birthday with someone(even if its just my nephews).Well I guess I have to get back to work now.Took longer than I thought.

Even if I don't get to do this for my birthday,I'm definitely going to do this if I get married some day.I love lights like this.It makes me think of fireflies.

-Rebecca Elizabeth